Oh Hai - Remember Me?

Yeah, I suck at life.

The last several weeks have been........interesting? Enlightening? I'm not really sure. But essentially, I have been ridiculously busy and finally decided, enough is enough....I NEED to update my blog or people are going to start judging me for being a terrible blogger. Oh.....wait.......

Anyways, here's what's new in my world:

1) We got to see/hear our baby for the last 3 weeks! I have no idea what I am seeing when I am looking at the ultrasound, but there is a blob there, and it has a heartbeat, so I'm pretty confident that little chicken nugget looking thing is my kid! It's probably one of the most amazing things ever. I have pretty much counted days between ultrasounds, just to hear that little thump, thump again and know that at least for now, everything is ok.

2) I have felt like poop. Literally. I am bloated, farty, nauseous most of the time, have heartburn, am exhausted, and generally feel like a lesser version of myself. My pants don't fit, my boobs feel like bowling balls, and I am breaking out. I am not going to lie and say that I love every minute. No matter how much I hoped and prayed and waited for this baby, being up all night essentially dutch-ovening yourself while you cling to the stack of saltines by your bed and pray you don't vomit on your sheets, is less than fun. That said, the time is really flying by, and even more than wishing first tri away because of the aforementioned fun stuff, I really am wishing for a little bit greater feeling of being "out of the woods" so to speak. I have no reason to think that things won't be completely ok, but getting past that 12 week mark just symbolically means something.

3) I graduated from my RE today! That in itself was a big step, and really pretty bittersweet. I didn't know what to do with myself. Kind of like this scene on Talladega Nights:

I mean.....what do you do to say thank you to someone that gave you a miracle?  It didn't feel right to say "thanks" and then leave. It also didn't feel right to cry while clinging to my RE for dear life, which is what I kind of felt like doing.  I decided that I will send a thank you card and a box of cupcakes, and follow that up with a baby picture come June.

4)Work, Work, Work. Oy vey. I have been working overtime, evenings, weekends, and even in my sleep, it seems. This is perhaps the busiest time of year for us, and I have to keep up. The last month has been intense, and it will be 2 more weeks of racing towards the finish line before things let up. Oh, and one more thing - I'm trying to interview for another job in there too. So that keeps life interesting!

Overall, I am hanging in there, and clearly setting the bar high in terms of expectations for this blog.  I hope that at some point, I can gussy it up a bit, pull my head out of my ass, and start contributing more.  In the mean time, adjust your expectations accordingly. :)